you see these marks i did this for 6 years, my close friends and family didn’t understood why
i started to cut my self after my dad died,
me and my dad where driving in the car one day he was trying to tell me joke but they were never funny, it was raining pretty hard that day as i remember, the drunk driver hit my dads side, i ended up with a broken arm but my dad didnt make it
then my brother passed away aug 31-2010 but that a whole new story , and i cut my self even more god knows i wish i could her his voice and hug him just one more time
people didn’t understand how depressed i was or how i use to cry for no reason how i felt so loney all the time, but you would never know it because i had the biggest fake smile on my face, i didn’t care how far i went with the cutting i even use to get mad at myself when the cut wasn’t deep enough
but thats all in the past now i haven’ t cut my self in over 7 months :) and i am really proud of my self i learned that this isnt the answer to anything, and that i cant change the past and that my dad and brotheris in a better place <3 i still struggle with depression but i know i will get through it
